Year one.

My life began 2 years ago... well, my real life that is.

before last year I feel like I was living in such a fantasy world, such a bubble.

I felt like I had it all figured out... Life was so simple, so... effortless.

This past year has been filled with so many personal struggles and obstacles that have created who I am as a person... as a REAL person... as an individual.

no more hiding behind my friends or the person that I made myself out to be.

When I think back on my life then... Sometimes I'm envious of that person I once was.

She was so naive. Blind to what the world had to offer - good and bad.

Lately I've opened myself up to a whole new view of life itself.

I didn't mean to.. it just sort of.. happened.

Some days I feel comfortable with who I've become and the path that I'm choosing,

but most days I'm scared.

I get too worked up sometimes... I dig too deep.

I can never just see a situation at face value... and it often gets me into trouble with myself and with the people that I love.

I never used to be that way... but now I am a full-blown over analyzer. 

I'm tired!

g'night!

-m

skytown

do you ever wonder about life? where did it all come from?

who did we all come from? how do we know all that we know?

i'm baked.

scribbles

this is how i see you.

this is how i would surmise you.

if i could put words on you - this how i would describe you;

you are... beautiful.

beautiful, you are.

and you fill me with wonder

and you fill me with awe

and you're over and under, near and far

you are... beautiful.

beautiful, you are.

i've fallen fast in love with you

fast into knowing more of you.

gripping on to what i know is true

i'm so fast in love with you.

im falling deep in love with you

deeper than any ocean blue

depth that no death can hold me to

im so deep in love with you.

dance with me,

you know i'll be leaving soon

laugh with me,

thats what i need to get me through.

i dont need the stars, as pretty as they are...

to get me through the night, i'd rather have you right beside me

i know its early,

but come with me.

pack your bags, but hurry.

i need you beside.